i collect trust
i put it in jars
and place them along my walls
i hide behind them
and skitter across floors coated in dust
i lust for answers
questions upon questions
blanket my awareness
sifting through to the light
i only see it in glimpses
im more at home down here anyway
living from day to day
under the beds of other's
scouring
observing
searching
for everything
hungry hungry hungry
ravenous
greedy
green
i see things that i dont mean
and mean things i dont say
to be free is never free
but its okay
ill always be here
saying something
because its something to say
but if you were to listen..
i learn to sway
and
And your eyes sparkle
With irrendescent hopelessness
I slump in this defeat
I admit that I, for today
Am weak
And you cant begin to process
The swelling uprising tide of my heart
The ebbing flow of this timed massacre
And I bet you wont even read this
Let alone distract yourself from your reflection
To even begin to go about comprehending these words
I am forgetful and forgiving
The illusion of fine
Holds fast in the windows you see through
And all you see is calm and collected
You cant fathom my distress and sudden unrepressed state
Its scary and unreal
I need that fuzzyness you get
And I cant stand not feeling it
It helps
inspired by L E T T E R S by PsychoBeast, literature
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inspired by L E T T E R S
and i read those piles of words
i hoarded that collection of letters
and i dove into them
i let them swallow my shallow mind
so precious and dull
they consumed me
until inspiration spilled from my mouth and fingers
i wont regret this
i breathe in this translation
continuously
its apart of my clouded chest
it has seeped into my head
i cant shake it
for its all ive got
its holding me together
im bound by each letter
i fight
and strain
but i cant break it
lines
simplistic and meaningless
contorted and forged
and these shapes symbolize our world
we feed from them
and thrive on this link to humanity
I Was Never Really The Best Swimmer by PsychoBeast, literature
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I Was Never Really The Best Swimmer
All I can ask is why would you do this?
And Im swimming in the sorrow
Even with my eyes shut
Im swimming
The corpse of us is cold and still
And I can smell the stench of failure
The light of hope dimming
Youre losing it
Losing it
The man holding the cards
Fate laughs at us
And Im swimming in the sorrow
All I can see is the wet sadness
Of a future drowned in our mistakes
Or rather choices
Stuoid stupid choices
I had fought against the logic of their voices
And now Im swimming
The truth still makes me sick
It pulls me down
Into the depth of its wrongness
Im lost in it
Realization hits homeAnd Im alone
So alone
Im swimmin
Learning For The New Age by PsychoBeast, literature
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Learning For The New Age
The dark tugs at the age
Sometimes Im under
Sometimes Im above
But Im learning
Oh Im learning
Your smile tastes of love
And it holds me afloat
A strong resistance
Against the black anchor
Chained to my heart
And Im learning
Oh Im learning
And every night
Before I sleep
When the dark comes
I lose my resolve
I falter
And crumble to pieces
Ground into dust
By these traveler's souls
All the promises
All the faith
You let me fall
And break apart
You were supposed to catch my breath
And hold it close
To the love
Behind my eyes
The shine
In my smile
Our blade
Now dull
A broken spine
Supporting a million regrets